What I want out of Life.....

What I want out of life….

I want to find a steady career that I love, one that pays enough to not just get by but to pay off debts and save.
I want to fall in love and know that the love is also returned, I want to be able to trust with all my heart know that I am loved for who I am the good and the bad, I want to be loved for me. I don’t want to feel second best or always be second guessing, I want to mean the world to that person and be treated with respect. I want to be able to communicate and talk about anything without it always turning into a fight or a blame session; I don’t want things to be blown off or brushed aside. I want to know my feelings and thoughts matter. I want to be held and feel like that person never wants to let go. I want to know that even if there are fights or hard times that they will be willing to work though things and not just run.
I want a family, I want us to last and be close. I want to be able to do things together and have fun, to travel to work and to play together. I want a home, a place I can make my own and love returning to.
I want to travel as much as I can to as many places as I can. I want to learn new things and continue my education. I want to step out of my comfort zone even if it’s hard to do and try new things; I want to be daring enough to scuba dive and snorkel or to sky dive and swim with the dolphins, or raft down a river. I want to expand my skill in cooking and wedding design.

Mending

You would think there would come a point and time when the breaking, tearing, burning and ach would stop. When there just isn’t any more to give or care. Am I so blind and Naïve to think that maybe just maybe there would be a time that it might be different? Apparently so…..

Behind the Masks

Why in marriage do we expect each other to change. You go into the relationship growing in love with who the other person is before marriage or engagement yet once that ring is on the finger or the “I do's” said you want all to change. Also why do we wear masks and be who we are not before engagement or marriage and take the mask off after, would it not be better to know who it is you are marrying?